over & cool.

what happened to me this past week? getting over with problems. slowly recovering...as i get used to it, i'm feeling much better...never felt like this before..that's my personal thing...as for school stuff, as always, a lot of requirements and midterm tests..all headaches!..i watched Fantastic Four yesterday and it was good, though i got irritated with the Human Torch in one of the scenes where he and Jessica Alba (Invisible Woman) had this hot conversation and i didn't like what he said...i was able to relate to it and i don't want to hear it that's why i got irritated...at first the Human Torch was really acting cool and conceited but towards the end, his attitude improved, he was also a bit funny and the movie itself was entertaining especially the hot and sexy Jessica Alba, i was amazed with her belly. haha. so sexy and thin. she really worked hard for that body, i guess. anyways, this coming week i'm planning to watch 2 movies, If Only starring Jennifer Love Hewitt and Herbie: Fully Reloaded starring Lindsay Lohan. i'm hoping to see these 2 movies next weekend. i'm also looking forward to pamper myself next weekend, aside from watching movie/s, i'm planning to have my haircut and facial care. haha. for school, i guess there would be more requirements to pass, reports to study and papers to finish, that's why i'm always looking forward every weekend coz only in weekends i experience true relaxation and somehow, i'm able to set aside my worries even for a while. also, the big occassion happened last week friday, july 8, where my high school and college friends surprised me with a birthday bash at pizza hut in taft. i was really really really surprised because i got to see all of my special friends in one location. they made me so happy. though i'm not really happy to celebrate my birthday, they gave me a reason to by surprising me. actually, i hate surprises, up to now i still have this feeling of shock, mixed emotion...and so on and so forth...all i know is that i'm really happy, my friends made me feel that i'm special and i do deserve to have a memorable, or should i say, the most memorable birthday in my entire life. my close friends knew what i'm going thru right now and they think that this is the best time to surprise me so that i can set aside this feeling of loneliness and depression. to be honest, i'm starting to be okay and getting used with my situation now and there's nothing to be happy about actually. i'm just trying to feel okay because i dnt deserve to feel this way...like i'm not doing right things that i always commit stupid mistakes all the time..if you know what i mean and how it feels...i guess you'll understand what i'm saying..i guess i had enough of everything...everything problematic...problem really sux! dnt want to mention anything about my problem again though it helps when i'm typing and releasing my burden here in my blog...so i guess, this is it. til my next blog. hope to be feeling really good next week...time kills the pain...yeah right?!

breakaway. since you been gone. behind these hazel eyes.

anu ba nangyari sa akin this past week? ang dami. mas naging makulay na may halong kalungkutan nanaman, as usual, hindi nawawala un sa buhay ko lalo na lately. mas gusto ko na lang manahimik kasi wala na din ako magagawa kung ganito na buhay ko. dami ginawa sa school, dami requirements lalo na ung topic sa thesis...ayaw ko na pagusapan yan...anyways, okay naman ang social life ko with my friends, nakakasama ko sila at masaya ako...ayun...naging maayos at masaya naman ako sa classroom this past week, unlike the previous week...may progress naman ako...so basically, i can proudly say na i'm moving on slowly but surely, which is a good sign. kanina pinanood ko ung War of the Worlds with my friends tapos last week napanood ko pala ung Monster in Law. This coming week Fantastic Four naman ang balak kong panoorin. Just want to be preoocupied sa kahit ano, at least nagiging masaya naman ako sa buhay ko. kailangan lang siguro mangyari ang mga dapat nangyari sa akin this past few weeks for the betterment of myself and i guess dun sa...basta dun. haha. sana magtuloy-tuloy na ang pagiging okay ko. no more crying eric, no more!

one of these days.til' i get over you.are you happy now?

nagkamali ako sa prediction ko na magiging okay na ako ngayong linggo na ito...lalong lumala. seryoso, ayaw ko na. kung anu man nangyayari sa akin ngayon, bahala na ang Diyos, kung nandyan pa siya para sa akin, hindi ako relihiyosong tao pero hindi ko naman ginusto mga nangyayari sa akin ngayon. sinubukan kong ayusin sa loob ng 4 months, pero kung talaga hindi na mag work...basta...kailangan ko na talagang magpalaya...kahit masakit pa...kung un ang ikaliligaya niya...pakawalan na lang. sana maging masaya siya, at magiging masaya na lang din ako para sa kanya...susubukan ko kung kaya ko maging masaya para sa amin. ayaw ko na magbigay ng mga detalye, mananahimik na lang ako. sana makayanan ko pa at matutunan ko ng maging matatag ngayon, sa sobrang sakit ng nangyari, hindi ko na alam kung paano pa ulit ako babangon ngayon. ipagdasal niyo na lang ako kung pwede. salamat.

losing grip. my happy ending. fall to pieces.

anu ba nangyari sa akin this past week? haha. mahaba ang weekend kasi walang pasok nung monday. from tuesday to friday? anu nga ba? haha. teka, puro aral aral at walang katapusan na aral at pag-iisip ng thesis topic ang nangyari so i guess hindi ka interesado malaman un? mapunta tayo sa aking social life. haha. noong tuesday lumabas ako with my high school friends sa robinson's ermita para panoorin ang mr. and mrs. smith, actually dapat mag movie marathon kami last monday pero na-postponed, bad trip noh? sayang un. pero napanood ko na din ung movie ni tito brad at tita angelina, oo, tama ang pagkabasa mo, tito at tita ko sila. haha. joke. pero infairness sa kanila, maganda ang movie nila. take note, bagay pa sila? so i guess wala naman masama sa rumors accdg to ET na may relationship sila...haha. single naman parehas e, so pwede na. tas nakakatawa pa, nag away sila at nasira nila halos lahat ng gamit sa bahay nila, napagod na sila at lahat lahat tapos mageend-up lang sa SEX. haha. nagpatagal pa ung away nila tas magbabati din at mag se-SEX pa sila. iba eh, ganda. haha. tas wednesday, hindi ako lumabas. haha. thrursday, lumabas ulit ako with friends para panoorin ang batman begins. hindi ako fan pero pinanood ko, haha. ganito naman talaga ako e, nood lang ng nood basta maganda ang trailer. haha. ayos naman sya, nakakatawa kasi dba kapag start na nag movie papatayin na ang lights? hindi pinatay tas nagumpisa na pala. kala ko kung anong mahabang trailer, un pala, start na ng movie. katanghan e noh? anyways, gabi na din ako nakauwi at gawin ang research editing na h.w. namin, ang haba pero ayos lang. natapos ko naman kahit late na. haha. friday..grabe, lumabas kmi with my college friends sa rockwell para panoorin ang batman begins...ULIT! haha. parang thursday night napanood ko na tas kinabukasan un ulit? haha. ilang beses na ako nakaulit ng movie, before batman begins, ung star wars episode 3 twice ko din napanood. kaya ng nakatulog ako sa movie house kc alam ko na ung nangyari dun e, pero infairness kay tito christian bale, maganda ung movie nya with tita katie holmes, ung current girlfriend daw ng tito ko na si tom, yeah, si tom cruise nga. haha. anyways, tas nung saturday, nanood naman ako with my high school friend ng shutter, ung thai horror about photography. grabe! nakakagulat, sa dami na ng asian horro films na napanood ko from the ring na japanese, the eye, bangkok haunted, dark water, the grudge, at lahat pa ng asian horrors, to be exact, 18 na ang napanood ko including ung mga american na remakes. haha. pero napamura at napasigaw pa ako, mejo lang ah, kasi nakakatakot ung sa bed scene.bed scene kasi hinihila ng multo ung kumot nung guy, san ka pa? parang ayaw ko na tuloy matulog. haha. so un. 3 movies this week. parang walang pasok e noh?! haha. nood lang ng nood, anyways, next week naman monster in law ung kay jennifer lopez, ganda daw nun kasi box office sa states so i guess manonood nanaman ako next week. haha. tas war of the worlds ung kay tito tom cruise sa june 29 tas ung fantastic four nila tita jessica alba etc. dami pa movie to watch out. haha. so i guess hanggang dito muna, ayos? yoko na masyado pang mag kwento, masyado nang bulgar ang social life ko, social life ba toh? hehehehehe. cge. til my next blog blog blog...=p *parang walang connection ung title noh? napansin mo? wla lang. haha. cge.

i'm gonna be alright. back to good. don't speak.

What happened to me last week? A week of sadness and confusion. Sadness due to Confusion. Does it make sense? I can't actually explain what happened to me because it's really personal. Let me just describe it this way, i'm actually confused of what is true and real from what is not. Isn't this sad? I've been depressed for weeks, or should i say months. It started last February, to be exact. Up to now, i've been experiencing the rollercoaster ride of my life for the very first time. I've never experience something like this before. I'm emotionally unstable but i'm working on it to make my life and feelings much better. I already did an action last Friday concerning my problem and i'm starting to work on it this week. I hope this week would be a bright and worry-free week so that i can get back to the normal 'eric' i used to be and my friends knew before. I want to get back to the normal happy-go-lucky type of 'eric'. The 'happy and problem-free eric' before. That's my target now, to bring back the 'eric' of the past because this is just ain't me. I'm different from what i used to be before and hopefully, i can turn the tables around this time to get what i'm trying to get.